killed by the weakness but forced to return

look look

2005-06-28T01:37:38Z

NEW LJ

ADD IT!!!!!!

go ahead slit your wrist

2005-06-27T19:28:11Z

warped tour yesterday it was fun
im hella sunbured though even my lips
i got to see underoath they were really good
i think that was my favorite even though some fat bitch sat on my head
i saw houston with his new college sophomore gilfriend(hes a sophomore in high school)weird, i makes me mad i m not jealous cause god,i have caleb enough said. and i know i dont have feelings for him cause i lost those a long time ago.oh well who cares
my sister is goin to my dads for a week so i ll be alone boo

imfrekinhott @ 2005-06-24T20:29:00

2005-06-25T01:31:17Z

i just found out my older sister best friends weddin is tomorrow
she was like a sister to me and im not invited
i knew i wasnt but it just hit me,i guess that relationship didnt mean too much

love with an open mind and open heart

2005-06-24T18:44:46Z

So it's not gonna be easy.
It's gonna be really hard.
We're gonna have to work at this every day,
but I want to do that because I want you.
I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.

this is really true.caleb explained something to me the other day, that love is not an emotion because emotions cause feelings and with feelings you can either have to little or too much but with love you can never have enough or too little.
he also told me because of the way he loves he now understands the way god loves him....uncondtionally

imfrekinhott @ 2005-06-23T13:29:00

2005-06-23T18:35:15Z

warped tour sunday
micheal knew is home
i conformed to the typical teenage lifestyle last night
i dont regret it
my hair straightner broke boo
and ihave to have or ihave a mullet hahaha
houston aparently has a new g/f whose bi
and hes still givin me shit about breakin up with him
because he thinks i dont know abut the dirty pirate hooker
i learned what a carb was(not the food)and also what a wake and bake was
im stupid

imfrekinhott @ 2005-06-21T17:56:00

2005-06-21T23:00:32Z

im very tired right now
work today and yesterday and i went to the river yesterday
im off tomorrow yay!im going to the mall to get warped tour tickets and shorts
caleb cant go to warped tour because his parents are lame.fuck
so iguess im just going with hannah,i still supre excited to go cause a lot of good bands are there and i ahve money so i can buy stuff
i worked with a polish guy(fr.poland)today he was vert kool.
i had fun
i need a tan and i cant seemed to get one

imfrekinhott @ 2005-06-19T20:06:00

2005-06-20T01:13:20Z

this weekend was good
i hung out with caleb on friday and went to the movies and saw the longest yard
lords of dogtown wasnt playing lame lame
saturday iworked and then went out to eat with my mom and stepdad for moms birthday and fathers day we went to the gristmill cause chloe gets a discount cause she works there then me and chloe went to see the perfect man it was cute
sunday(today)went to churcu then went to cayon lake with my stepdad mom and chloe.i had fun i love the lake and swimming i tried to get a tan but i dont think it worked oh well i dodnt get burned though either.its cause im black niggas
i have to worked tomorrow boo!im getting warped tour tickets on wensday yay!i hope caleb can go but his parents are lame sometimes.
thats it for now.......

does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love

2005-06-16T14:46:59Z

so caleb came home on tuesday i was very excited.we hung out all day yesterday.i missed him alot alot.it was also my moms birthday yesterday i got her a watched and we threw her a lil surprise party.i was nice.im off today cause i was orgnally supposed to hang out with caleb today ,but i did yesterday. so now i dont what im goning to do. i think i might go shopping.
i kinda wish i had i girlfriend i could just hang out with.i guess matties not speakin to me i think its the whole houston thing.but i havent found that one friend since ive live in new braunfels and it kinda sucks.i sometimes wished i hadnt have moved cause atleast i fit in to some sort there everyone allready has there groups its really hard to fit in.so somtimes i wish ihad a best friend.

imfrekinhott @ 2005-06-15T08:36:00

2005-06-15T13:37:00Z

CALEB IS HOME!!!!!

blinded by the light wrapped like a douche another rumor in the night

2005-06-13T20:57:08Z

i was supposed to work a double today but they let me off early and thats find with me. igot my hours in.
houstons an asshole and i hate him,i used to just dislike him but now i hate him.where does he get the nerve to message me and talk shit about me and caleb outta nowhere.i havent even talked to him since we broke up.lame!guys are so immature and stupid.then he calls me that night for the 1st in forever and denies it.fucker! if want s to bitter and imature and play stupid games then fine but im not going to be apart of it.and its doesnt effect my feelings because im happy,really happy and thats whats important, his feelings arent my responseblity.so screw him.effin pussy!
caleb comes home tomorrow im so excited i havent seen him or talked to him in two weeks.ahhhhhhhhhhh yay!!!so so happy
im off wensday and thursday
wensday is my moms birthday
and thursday i get to hang out with caleb.whoop!
ok that (whoop)was gay

so follow that dude

2005-06-12T01:23:14Z

ok its saturday night my moms outta town and im
at home watching the breakfast club with my sister
how gay?
i got my hair cut looks pretty kool
i died black/brown with one blonde chunk looks sweet
im off tomorrow yay!i work a double monday though
its ok it makes my time go by faster
caleb comes back tuesday its been 2 weeks already
im ready to see him i miss him
can you say obsessed haha j/k
those are just true feeling nothin wrong with that.
people are mean
people are fake
so suck my penis
yes i do have one and its huge

ahahahhahahah ahhhhhhhh

2005-06-08T21:33:13Z

so good day today
i didnt get paid as much as i was supposed too
i went to the mall
got 2 new shirts and sweet white sunglasses
im like uberexcited to cut my hair tomorrow
wow im gay oh well
i couldnt find the academy is cd though lame
couple more days and caleb comes home yay!!!!!
this week better go fast
i still have to get my mom a b-day present

said she got all but i dont wanna be the one to tell her that she dont

2005-06-07T20:38:18Z

-worked today
-im off tomorrow goin to the mall
-get paid tomorrow
-im cutting my hair on thursday,im cutting alot off
-dying it on saturday real dark
-i think i suck at driving
-i feel disgusting mentally and physically
-i need new shoes and shorts
-my hair smells like ass
-i need a digital camera
-im ready for this week to be over
-next weeks my moms birthday
-forever til my b-day
-warped soon
-i have too save 300$ for hawii next june

hmmmmm

2005-06-06T01:20:01Z

why do i feel like i want to cry alot?
i think im gunna start my rag
im lonely and bored
i hope this week goes by fast
im cutting my hair on thursday yay!

so give me all your posion and give me all your pills

2005-06-04T03:03:46Z

im kinda feeling lost lately
i think i need to spend these next two weeks focuseing on me
i kinda miss having a really good girlfriend
its not like i dumped them all for a boy again cause i havent
i just havent found i girl lately who i love
and matties always working and lives in sa town
some girls are stupid though
im just kinda havin a sad day i miss everyone all ready
im goin shoppin tommorow after work
call me if you want hang!

imfrekinhott @ 2005-06-02T15:46:00

2005-06-02T20:54:34Z

-so caleb left this morning
-he wont be back till june 14
-i miss him already i know im a loser
-i really dont like some of the girls at churhc
-some of them need to get over tha fact that im dating caleb
-and if your not gonna like me cause of that then i dont need as a friend ne way
-also if you have a problem with it its really none of your buisness anyway
ok im done venting now
i work a double tomorrow bboooo!i love money though
thats it for now

imfrekinhott @ 2005-05-31T19:46:00

2005-06-01T00:49:25Z

sooo i dunno this weeks a sad week
i went to janinas going away party today
she goin back to germany on friday
and calebs leave on thursday so ima
gonna hang out with him alot tomorrow
im kinda sad ima gonna miss him
im such a girl boooo!!!

i dont want to fall to pieces

2005-05-30T19:45:03Z

weekend
fri-i went to the river with becc,mariana,hannah and my sis
- we saw a bunch of drunk people there
-we also saw joe and travis there we were gonna get snowcones but we ran out of$ we spent all at chicken express
-went back to my house had fun fun times lots of wendys
- stayed up late and talked
sat
-went to work
-then wentand got caleb
-went to lindsey graduation it was very sad that day came so fast
-saw beautiful dezi and lilly there
-went to la tortilitas and liten to wonderful country music to which caleb danced
sun-
-went to church
-then went to calebs house
-we cleaned our cars cause our moms tolds us too
-his grandma and grandoa came over and we bbqed
-then i drove as fast as i could home cause that strom scared the shit outta me

i went to work todayi have to got tomorrow as well
i have wensday off cause its the day before caleb leaves to germany for 2 weeks

imfrekinhott @ 2005-05-27T08:33:00

2005-05-27T13:39:44Z

-today is the offical last day of school
-me,hannah,becca.marianna,and my sis are goin to the river
-i think there is a goin away party for janina
-yesterday i picked caleb up from school
-then i went paintballing for the first time for calebs lil bro b-day
-it kinda hurt caleb shot me in the ass and i got shot in the finger
-tomorrow i have to work
-then its marion graduation so im going to that
-my big sister is graduating thats so insane it went by soo fast,man i love her soo much and i miss her a lot too.

this is tomorrow so take it or leave it

2005-05-25T19:12:22Z

-today was my last day at school yay!
-ill be a senior next year scary huh!
-i didnt really sat bye yo anyone
-cause theres no one there i really like
-and any one i do like either wasnt there or ill see them at church tonight
-church tonight i get to see caleb
-he leaves for germany next week on thurs.
-as well as everyone else i hang out with
-so ill probably just work alot for those two weeks
-i have to buy my warped tour ticket soon
-this year its gonna be great i can drive i people i love are comin with me yay!

imfrekinhott @ 2005-05-23T15:57:00

2005-05-23T21:01:47Z

weekend
friday-
-got me some new jeans
-and ate awesome kfc
saturday-
-worked till 8;30
-saw dezi got a hug well needed
-saw lily got a kiss well needed
-went home crashed
sunday-
-went to church
-caleb came over and ate pizza
-we went to go eat ice cream
-then went to watch star wars
-it was awesome
- went to calebs hung out for awhile

didnt do anything real exciting but i had a good good time.

with you im falling in love for the very first time

2005-05-23T02:39:09Z

good good day
i now know this is what makes me happy. iknew it all along but i denied it. im sorry if you have a problem with it but im not ganne be misarable to make you happy.

i am truly happy for the first time in awhile.

ummmmmm.....

2005-05-21T01:38:47Z

i was thinkin and i just relized that i really loved my sister and im really sorry for being mean and selfish as usual. im soo lucky to have her as my sister and i hate when shes mad at me it makes me feel like shit.im so glad shes here and i dont think she even relizes shes my best friend. so yea thats whats on my mind soo by im sorry.

"i said i got to be honest ive been waitng for you all of my life"

if you wanted honesty thats all you had to say

2005-05-20T21:13:05Z

i only have to take three exams yesss!i exempted geometry wow!
i passed all my taks
im going to american eagle to get new jeans
i ripped both my pairs in the crotch and if you take them to the outlet they will give you new ones for FREE! i swear
i worked a double tomorrow
i think im going to see stars wars with caleb on sunday
Marion graduation next week
im bringin caleb along to keep me entertained

the photographs your boyfriend took

2005-05-17T00:55:29Z

fri:
went cosmic bowling with my sister for the frist time
it's overrated
sat:
-work till 2
- fake prom mattie came over
- had lots of fun with caleb
- went to the river after the keller concert
- rory and ryan got naked
- mattie had a leach on her
- mattie ran off with brandon
- me and caleb had to wait in my car for 1/2 hour
- got in trouble got chloe went to bed
sun: mom wasnt mad anymore'
went to church
-layed around all day
-doing absolutly nothing except being a myspace whore!
hahhahahaha fake prom was fun i love those people u guys are awesome